I was very small when religion and spirituality was introduced to me. When I am saying very small, I actually mean in-utero. I was exposed to so many religions, faiths, ways of life, and despite my parents efforts to help me in my journey, I struggled to find myself for the first 18 years of my life. Even after that, I couldn’t understand why the same things kept happening to me.
Now, I am married, in a place where I need my happiness to matter much more than ever. Staying in a place where there is such a small community, with extended family, with everyone who has an opinion about everything, in a new place and environment, I have really lost myself.
When I was pregnant with my second, I constantly felt low. I felt I had no control and my life was spinning. Then I wrote. I started being empathetic. I tried thinking of how the other person was feeling – and it has changed my life.
I decided to share my simple knowledge with others, because we are all in the same boat. If its not in our marriage that we lose ourselves, it is at work. And if we take the decision of not to change, we end up lonely too. Don’t know why, but most of our generation struggle with the feeling of loneliness. I am not talking about being able to sit alone, I’m talking about taking the decision to remain alone for long periods of time.
I hope what I have to say can help you, if not to find yourself, but just to cope with the daily struggles of life.